If I’m going to be real for a minute, just for a minute, you want to know what I want??? This is what I want….
To be seen.
To be heard.
To have a voice.
To not be invisible.
To be important.
To make a difference.
To be loved.
Is that too much to ask for???? haha. Apparently, it is. I don’t know why (fear), but it is.
But something popped up in my head today – the Golden Rule. The Golden Rule says something along the lines of “treat others the way you want to be treated.” Do I treat others the same way? Do I let others be seen? Or heard? Or have a voice? Love them? I do but probably not as much as I should. And I will admit during my deep depression period, I was a bit on the selfish side. I stopped caring about people. There’s this belief that if I give others too much “spotlight” then what about me? What. About. Me? It’s like there is this limited supply of attention, of love in the world and everyone is trying to get a piece of it. And only a select few can get it. So if you get it, then what do I get? There is SOOOO much love if everyone would just give it. If everyone would throw some love in that big ol’ pot, we can all have some. There will never be a limited supply. But we can’t be afraid of rejection. Or whatever fear it is that is stopping us from loving. Easier said than done, I know, I’m having that problem right now.
SO my goal this year, 2017, heck for the rest of my life, is to practice the Golden Rule: treat others the way I want to be treated. Of course there has to be boundaries and self-respect. I learned that the hard way. We can’t give, give, give until we’re drained. We have to love ourselves too. There is so much pain in the world and I don’t like seeing people in pain. I was thinking about how I said I wanted to not be invisible. And how many people feel that way. What if I dedicated this blog to others and their stories? I mean I’ll still write stuff but I want others to feel heard. To not feel invisible. Treating others the way I want to be treated. Just an idea. It is 2 am though? 2 am thoughts haha. Usually when all my ideas come to me. I probably should go to sleep.
By Sonja Jackson, OpenHeartTin