I woke up this morning with such a great love for the women in my life. Strong women. The pain they've been through. And to still be smiling, and laughing, and supportive, and loving - that takes strength. I used to withdrawal from them during hard times. Their love. Anyone's love, really. But I've learned … Continue reading To the Strong Women In My Life (and All Over)
I needed your safety, your comfort, your support. Someone I knew I could go to when I couldn't handle the pain from the outside world. Someone to listen and tell me it was going to be okay. I needed that. To not be pushed away or judged when I was sad, when I was angry, … Continue reading I Forgive You
I know what it feels like to be addicted to someone. It's a drug. I don't think anyone intends on getting that way. It just happens. And before you know it, there you are. You try to let go, and you know you should, not just for their sake but your sake too. But you can't. … Continue reading Addicted
Nothing fuels me like anger. Ok, maybe I lie. Maybe love. Love gets me pretty motivated. Maybe love than anger. Either way it gets my blood pumping. I have what I like to call "anger reserves". Like oil reserves, they are trapped way down. And when they are tapped...I don't know where I'm going with … Continue reading Dealing with Anger and Resentment
Still no job and no idea what to do next BUT...
I treat relationships the same way I do movies. That's already a bad start. I like to know the ending of a movie before it even begins. Because who wants to put that much time into a crappy story? I get just because the ending is crappy, it doesn't make the entire story crappy. There … Continue reading I Treat Relationships The Same Way I Do Movies
MY ANXIETY THEN I'm pretty confident meditation (and prayer) saved my life. If I had not learned to meditate, my mind would have convinced me to kill myself. It was already starting to which is why I had to find help. I went to a therapist originally, but I couldn't afford it. So I began reading … Continue reading Meditation and Anxiety
I think one of the most important lessons I've learned through this whole experience is that when I feel like running away from myself/life...don't. Those days when you're sad and you don't know why. Or there's this huge pit of hopelessness inside and you hate life and you don't even know why you're here. Or … Continue reading When We Feel Like Running Away
I didn't realize how much I needed this. Very peaceful.