You know that feeling when you're really passionate about something or you're excited about something you've created but you're scared to share it with others because you don't want to be judged. It might not be "good enough". They might not like it. Yeah, well, do it anyway. You like it. It makes you happy. … Continue reading Do It Anyway
Do you ever get tired of being afraid? Holding on because you're afraid? Living the way they want because you're afraid? Holding up this perfect image because you're afraid? Following all their rules because you're afraid? Hating yourself, your life, because you're afraid? Living for them, to impress them, because you're afraid? Being controlled because … Continue reading Do You Ever Get Tired of Being Afraid?
**Edit: I wasn't going to post this because I was thinking there are people with so many more problems than me and here I am complaining. But then I thought, no. You know where that thinking comes from? Being told over and over again, that what you are feeling isn't important or isn't right or … Continue reading It Will Come When It Is Time
Because it can break you AND your relationship. Lesson learned. I guess one benefit of having been in a relationship that went up Shit Creek is you learn what not to do. Anymore. Ever again haha. The thing with me though, I feel, instead of learning lessons over the course of a few relationships, I … Continue reading How To Not Be Overly Dependent on Your Partner
"Faking or forcing positivity" is a topic I've seen around a bit and I wanted to talk about it because it is something I'm familiar with and the reason I started blogging. Some of the things we do in order to cope with life are insane. But what's even more insane is that we aren't … Continue reading Faking/Forcing Positivity and How I Learned to Change
I believe why this is so hard for me because I never realized how much my worth was dependent on things I have. Who am I without a job, money, a friend/lover, my appearance, other's love? All those things have determined my worth. I'm unemployed, I don't have an income, I'm single, my appearance has … Continue reading Who Am I?
I decided I'm not going to take up that offer to schedule an interview. I'm going to pass this opportunity up. It's not what I truly want. The only reason I want this job is because of fear. To calm my anxiety. To have security. A means to an end. I know in my heart … Continue reading Trust & Patience
I've been reading Pema Chodron's When Things Fall Apart, highly recommend by the way, but she says: "All anxiety, all dissatisfaction, all the reasons for hoping our experience could be different are rooted in our fear of death. Fear of death is always in the background (41)." Lately I've been really anxious because of unemployment and … Continue reading Anxiety and Fear of Death (My Thought Process)
What are you so worried about? I don't know where my life is going. What's going to happen next. And that not knowing scares me. I don't have security. I don't have something to hold on to. But I don't want to go back to what my life was before. I was unhappy. I need … Continue reading My Mind (Stream of Consciousness): Trust