Social Anxiety

It feels like everyone is looking at me,
judging me,
criticizing every little thing I do,
waiting to find some flaw,
some weakness,
so they can use it against me,
so they can reject me.
I have to be perfect,
but I’m not perfect.
No talking on the phone,
no texting,
no having an opinion,
no talking, period.
No going to job interviews,
and no crowded places.
They’ll think I’m stupid.
Boring.
Not good enough.
‘Cause I think I’m stupid,
boring,
not good enough.
It silenced me, my anxiety.
It silenced me.

-Sonja Jackson, OpenHeartTin

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