How can you be okay, be happy, when you don’t know what’s going to happen? When you don’t have security? This has probably been my hardest challenge – living life without security (what I believed to be security) and not knowing what’s going to happen. Security for me was outside stuff. A partner and my own money. When I had those two things, I was good to go. But I have neither of those things. So how am I learning to be okay? To be secure? I had to trust that I can take care of myself no matter what comes up and that God is with me. I have to BELIEVE that. If I don’t believe I can handle any situation that comes my way, if I don’t trust MYSELF, trust my intuition, trust that God is with me, I don’t trust people, I’m afraid of what’s going to happen, of uncertainty, I’m afraid to be alone, and that is exactly what happened. I didn’t trust myself. I didn’t trust my intuition. I didn’t trust that God had my back. So I was afraid of everything.
I just wanted to share that because it’s something that recently dawned on me. I know a lot of people who are afraid to be alone, who are afraid of not knowing what’s going to happen in the future, and I found that once you learn to trust yourself that goes away.
It’s a journey. ❤
-Sonja Jackson, OpenHeartTin