Being Okay When You Don’t Know

How can you be okay, be happy, when you don’t know what’s going to happen?  When you don’t have security?  This has probably been my hardest challenge – living life without security (what I believed to be security) and not knowing what’s going to happen.  Security for me was outside stuff.  A partner and my own money.  When I had those two things, I was good to go.  But I have neither of those things.  So how am I learning to be okay?  To be secure?  I had to trust that I can take care of myself no matter what comes up and that God is with me.  I have to BELIEVE that.  If I don’t believe I can handle any situation that comes my way, if I don’t trust MYSELF, trust my intuition, trust that God is with me, I don’t trust people, I’m afraid of what’s going to happen, of uncertainty, I’m afraid to be alone, and that is exactly what happened.  I didn’t trust myself.  I didn’t trust my intuition.  I didn’t trust that God had my back.  So I was afraid of everything.

I just wanted to share that because it’s something that recently dawned on me.  I know a lot of people who are afraid to be alone, who are afraid of not knowing what’s going to happen in the future, and I found that once you learn to trust yourself that goes away.

It’s a journey. ❤

-Sonja Jackson, OpenHeartTin

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