I had to go to the river yesterday. I’m officially a free bird now.
I think even though I hadn’t talked to my ex for a year, I was still holding on to this idea of us getting back together. So knowing he has a girlfriend now, it’s forcing me to let go of that attachment I had. That’s why it’s been a little hard lately. I talked to him, told him how I felt, there’s nothing else I can say or do. I have done everything I can.
Yeah, I’ve been crying. A lot. I had high hopes. Such a strong urge to call him. But it’s okay. It’s pain that needs to get out of my body. It feels good honestly. I’m feeling lighter. Feeling free! I’m feeling better today.
It’s my friend’s birthday this weekend. Haven’t seen her in a long time. So going to hang with her and the rest of the gang. That’ll be fun. I’m just ready to start new.
-Sonja Jackson, OpenHeartTin