This is an old poem I wrote. I believe depression and negative thoughts run hand in hand. I don’t fight negative thoughts anymore. I have found when it comes to negative thoughts to let them flow. Acknowledge them, don’t push them away, show them love, but don’t attach yourself to them either. Don’t believe them. For example, these are some of my negative thoughts: I’m ugly/worthless/not good enough/not loved/stupid/boring/never going to be successful etc…The list goes on. I show myself love by acknowledging these thoughts and not ignoring them. It’s a part of me that wants to be heard. But at the same time, my higher self knows none of those thoughts are true. I replace them with a positive thought. (I recommend listening to positive affirmations on YouTube). And you keep doing that over and over and over. Listen to the negative thoughts, let them flow, but don’t give them power. That’s not just with negative thoughts about you, it’s also about others too.
You’re probably wondering though how do I KNOW I’m not ugly? How do I know I’m not worthless? How do I know I’m loved? How do I know I’ll be successful? I don’t know. I BELIEVE. And your beliefs determine your actions. For example, you can believe you’re ugly and that your looks define who you are and no one will ever want to be with you because everyone in the world only cares about looks and probably fall into a depression OR you can believe hey, I’m unique, I’m beautiful the way I am, no one else looks like me, I have awesome legs, I can sing (or whatever you like about yourself), someone else will see what I see too one day, and you continue doing you.
It’s not that easy to control your thoughts. Believe me, I know. It takes patience. A whole lot of patience. And a whole lot of faith. When your thought process has been negative for most of your life (like mine), it’s hard to just snap and be positive. It takes time. SELF-LOVE TAKES TIME. A WHOLE LOTTA TIME. But God believes in you. I believe in you. Now I need you to believe in you. Keep the faith.
-Sonja Jackson, OpenHeartTin