I haven’t written on here in a couple of months. I could blame it on not having a keyboard, which is true, my spacebar broke. But the real truth would be — I needed some “me” time. I’ve still been writing small posts on the OpenHeartTin IG page, but that’s it. Between the holidays, heartbreak (again), some “cold” sickness, pain from tooth infection for 2 weeks (I got it extracted hallelujah), I was a bit worn out. I’m much better now. Just needed to take a breather.
It’s been 2 years since I quit my job now. That’s been weighing heavily on me. But then I have to remind myself, Sonja, you’re still alive. HIGH-FIVE on THAT. It’s going to be okay. And I just want to say, to those who deal with chronic pain and have to take pain medication daily just to have some sort of peace, GOD BLESS. I’ve never really dealt with chronic physical pain. Emotional pain, yes – oh, God, yes -but physical, no, not really. That tooth infection opened my eyes. I mean my grandmother, who I helped take care of for 6 years, lived with chronic pain from a failed hip replacement, and I could see the pain she was going through (it broke my heart), but I never had to actually live with it. It just made me think. This is the pain people go through everyday? I hope not. This pain is insane. It comes and goes, but still.
But I just wanted to pop in and say Happy New Year. Hope you’re well. There’s so much I could be sad about, but I ain’t even bothered haha. I know my time is coming and I’m just grateful. I hope you know that too. Your time is coming. Let all the chaos flow right on by. We’re still here. We’re still alive. Keep the faith.
-Sonja Jackson, OpenHeartTin